Author: L.B. Simmons
Publisher by: Independent
Published on: April 25, 2014
Genres: Contemporary Romance
For some, it’s simply one of life’s certainties, nothing more. For others, it’s merely a fleeting thought, one often overshadowed by the reckless delusion that they have been blessed with the gift of immortality.
For Aubrey Miller, death is the definition of her very existence. Overcome with the guilt resulting from the loss of her beloved family, she alters her appearance from the once beautiful, blonde-haired, blue-eyed little girl to that of one shrouded in complete darkness, enveloping herself in her own unbreakable fortress of solitude as a form of protection for others.
As she enters her first year of college, her goal is simple: Earn a degree with the least amount of social interaction as possible. What she never anticipates is the formation of very unlikely relationships with two people who will change her life in ways she never believed possible: Quinn Matthews, the boisterous former pageant queen, and Kaeleb McMadden, a childhood friend from her past who never really let her go.
Over the years, as their connections intertwine and grow, a seemingly indestructible bond is formed between the three…
But when death painfully reemerges, Aubrey is lost once again, burying herself deeper than ever before inside the familiar fortification of her fears.
Will the refuge of friendship, the solidarity of life-long bonds, and the power of unconditional love be enough to do the impossible?
Will they be enough to finally bring about…
The Resurrection of Aubrey Miller
The Resurrection of Aubrey Miller by L. B. Simmons was amazing book. This is not for the faint hearted. This is the journey of Aubrey through her four years of college while she rediscovers herself after losing her family.
I’m not going to bore you with every single detail, not yet anyway. All you need to know at this point is that for many years my life was a dark, endless abyss of death. It followed me around like I was some sort of knock-off, subpar grim-reaper. The overwhelming guilt of the role I played in each death reigned over my life and many of those days consisted of me just trying to keep my head above the grief that consumed me.
I related to this character. In her short life she sees multiple deaths. Her sister, her mother and her father. After the death of her father, Aubrey reinvents herself to keep everyone away. She blames herself for the death of her family, even though it was not her fault. She moves in with her guardian, Linda who loves her like a daughter. Linda lets Aubrey grief by allowing her to change her name and her looks. Aubrey changing her look is to keep people out of her life. However, people manage to slip through the wall that she has built around herself.
Her college roommate who was the exact opposite of Aubrey. Aubrey walks into her dorm room and half the room is PINK. I laughed out loud at this point. I loved that her roommate had as much pink in the room. I thought that it was fitting because Aubrey was trying to be as dark as possible. Quinn Matthews, however has a cool name and does not let the appearance of Aubrey stop her from becoming her friend. Going through the book, Quinn is an interesting character that could have her own book. Her own struggles come out over the book and show Aubrey that she is not alone.
Kaeleb Kristopher McMadden slips through her wall. Kaeleb is a blast from her past and has his own struggles. I do not want to give too much away about their story but the relationship in major component in Aubrey’s healing.
I loved this book because Aubrey rediscovers herself and heals herself from the guilt that she is feeling from losing her family. Aubrey, with the main help of Kaeleb and his love for her, discovers that she does not have to feel guilty because her family died. None of the events that occurred are her fault. I loved how none of the characters were perfect. They were flawed, yet with each other they were able to heal themselves and their relationships with their families. Definitely give this book a read. It is worth the time.
“The simplicity of living astounds me. But it’s the terror of death that devours me”
6 stars!! I wrote this review with tears in my eyes, I have to say well done Lb. This was a beautifully written story about loss, guilt, love, and finding yourself. This was a story of a girl that lost so much at a young age and guilt and fear kept her from forming relationships and forced her to hide her true self through a mask, a girl that desperately wanted happiness but was too lost to see she deserved it. I fell in love with these characters; I fell in love with their bond. Each had their own issues and heartache but they were each a measure of hope and love for one another.
For Aubrey aka Raven, death has followed her throughout her life. She felt as if she brought destruction to those around her. Entering college was chance at a whole new beginning. Aubrey hid herself under the façade of Raven; she used the dark hair and weird contacts, to keep everyone away. Even with all she had been through, the real Aubrey was smart, sarcastic, and funny. Aubrey kept the painful memories locked away and other than her guardian Linda, she didn’t have anyone. Being closed off from others for so long, it became easy to shut others out. When she meets her roommate Quinn and their Boarding Buddy Kaeleb, they start to change her life and find a way past the walls that Aubrey put up.
“As long as you continue to travel through life in this darkness, you will never know how beautiful you light truly shines when you let yourself love and be loved…”
I loved Quinn. Quinn was loyal, loving, and she never judged. She was such a sweet person. Kaleab, sigh what can I say other than he was amazing. He was her perfect complement and he challenged Aubrey. The banter and friendship he gave her was so amazing. No matter what he showed he showed her love and tried to draw her out of her darkness. Over the next few weeks and months, she slowly let’s go of Raven to become Aubrey again and to find the happiness and joy.
“You’d be the exception, you know. With you, it would be real…”
Aubrey finally begins to find her way out of the darkness; she’s beginning to love herself and loves other back. It was beautiful to see her transformation but then another tragedy strikes and it threatens to pull her back into the darkness. She has to choose to fight and get past it or let it consume her again.
This book was powerful and emotional and I absolutely loved seeing the bond that these characters shared. No matter what, they were a constant support to each other. Kaeleb fought for Aubrey every step of the way and fought to bring her back from the darkness. From beginning to end I was so wrapped up in this story. L.b wrote great characters with humor, heart, and unbelievable emotion. The transformation and growth that Aubrey went through was inspiring. I would recommend this book to anyone.
“I think some people are just inexplicably bonded. Drawn by forces beyond their own comprehension, they have no choice but to gravitate toward one another. Destined by fate to keep crossing paths until they finally get it right.”
“Sometimes in life, there are these random moments when everything just clicks. When all the fragments of your fractured past fall together, merging in your mind to form a lucid image of your future. Each mistake made becomes a vital piece as it serves whatever purpose necessary to complete the picture as a whole and suddenly everything becomes so clear.
“Thank you so much, Quinn. This day has been…unbelievable. And I owe it all to you. You have no idea.” My voice trembles a bit with the admission, because she really has no idea what she’s done for me today.
I feel normal.
A normal girl, about to have a normal birthday celebration with her friends, in a normal (albeit spectacular) dress, with normal hair and make-up.
The only thing that’s missing is a pair of normal shoes.
“Shoes! I need shoes!” I exclaim.
“No, you don’t.” Quinn giggles and reaches for the knob of my bedroom door.
“What? Why wouldn’t I need shoes?”
That makes no sense.
She’s drunker than I thought.
That’s it, I’m officially hiding the champagne.
“You’ll see,” she says just as there’s a knock at the front door.
She winks. “Trust me. Just, stay in here. Don’t come out until someone comes to get you.”
After Quinn quietly shuts the door behind her, I remain seated. As the sounds of Kaeleb’s murmur filters into my room, a nervous excitement flitters through my belly and spreads into my chest. My joy takes flight and I breathe in deeply, contentment pumping enthusiastically with each thrumming heartbeat.
Damn, it feels good to be alive.
I don’t have to wait for long. After a very loud squeal from Quinn in the other room, there’s a knock at my door. My pulse kicks up and I rise from the bed, smoothing out my dress. With a glance in the mirror, I pluck a couple of sections of my new hair with my fingers and set them back into place. “Come in,” I remark, turning in the direction of the door.
The handle turns and as Kaeleb pokes his head around the corner, his eyes find mine. His eyebrows rise as his mouth falls slightly open, and he breaks my gaze as his focus shifts to take in my hair, my exposed neck and the line of my dress. He holds his stare briefly at the crystalline sash lining my waist, and then slowly drifts down to my smoothly-shaven legs and perfectly painted toenails. The left side of his mouth quirks up as he clears his throat, frozen in place. He tears his scrutiny away from my feet to fully step into the room, then turns away from me to shut the door.
I take advantage of the 1.5 seconds his back is turned, and survey him from head to toe. His light-blue button-up is folded to his elbows, displaying the prominence of the flexed muscles along his forearms. As he places both palms on the door and leans into them, his shirt rides up enough for me to see the designs on the back pockets of his dark jeans. They hug his ass perfectly, and for the first time in my life, I want to slide my hands right into those pockets just to feel the hardness of his toned body.
My fingers itch with the need to touch him, but I maintain control while Kaeleb braces against the door, inhaling and exhaling deeply. He stays planted there for a few more seconds until I suddenly begin to feel self-conscious. I run my hands over my hair and dress to make sure everything is as it should be.
Just as I start to ask him if he’s all right, he whips around with a full smile on his face. A few long strides later, and he’s standing right in front of me. Raising both hands, he traces the tips of his fingers along the sides of my cheeks, leaving a scorching trail as they run down my neck and thread themselves into the hair at my nape. With his thumbs underneath my chin, he tilts my head back and looks me directly in the eyes.
“You look amazing, Sunshine. Truly breathtaking.” His head dips slightly and he runs his lips tentatively along mine, the movement so sensual I can’t keep my hands off of him any longer. Fisting his shirt in my hands, I pull him into me and press my mouth hard against his, the need to taste him overriding my caution. A whimper rises in my throat and escapes into his mouth as his tongue slides in between my lips, slowly and deliberately, taking his time to stroke and caress mine. His hold tightens as his fingers curl deeper into my hair, the tinge of pain sending shockwaves of pleasure coursing through my body until they land right in between my legs, the throbbing sensation growing with each strike.
After another gentle sweep of his tongue, he lessens the kiss and pulls back slightly. His lips brush against mine before they slide over to the corner of my mouth, up along my cheek, and then rest them against my ear as he breathes, “Happy birthday. The dress is phenomenal.”