Author: Lena Horowitz
Publisher by: Simon Pulse
Published on: June 2, 2015
Page Count: 208
Before, I was never the life of the party. I was the reliable one. The one no one had to worry about. The one no one had to think about. I was the one that everyone could ignore.
Until that night, when everything changed and I finally became someone.
Someone Carson might actually care about, as much as I cared about him.
But the cost of being someone is more than anyone can imagine. For every moment, there’s a price to pay. For every party. For every choice made. For every kiss.
Ultimately, living a life of PURE ECSTASY might be no different from not living at all.
Dancing With Molly was a unique novel on drugs, addiction, and consequences.
I’ll be honest and say that I’m not completely sure how I feel about this novel. The writing style was a bit awkward and the subject matter was something completely foreign to me. I was shocked, appalled, and yet completely fascinated about the whole concept.
The main character (really truly I did not notice that they never said her name), is your ordinary 17-year-old girl. She’s quiet, a band geek, but she has her core group of friends. Her younger sister Ashley, is more girly, out going and popular, she even gets to go to prom as a sophomore. Their mom wants her to be more like her sister but she wants her mom to accept as she is. She’s usually fine with who she is but at the same time she wants to feel special.
She’s experimented with drinking and smoking weed but she’s never done any harder drugs. At a house party, her friend Jess and a group of friends, decide to try Ecstasy for the first time. At first she’s hesitant, but she decides to try it. The feelings she has while she’s on E, make her feel her almost powerful. She felt happy and completely at ease with herself. At first she swears that she won’t try the drug again, but the idea of using it again, combined with the feeling she will get from it, have her coming back for more.
As the story progresses, the main character becomes more and more excited each time she gets to do the drug. She eventually decides to try Molly, a purer version of the ecstasy. She loves it even more.
In the midst of this new lifestyle, she falls in love with Carson, a senior from her school. She’s happy and excited by life. She and her friends are in love with that high and what was once an occasional experimentation, becomes an almost weekly thing. She thinks she has a handle on what she’s doing but when she starts making reckless decisions and people get hurt, things start to get out of control.
The story is written like a diary. There were no real pauses or spaces and the writing style threw me off, but it did work for the character’s age. The author seemed to describe the drug scenes with such vivid detail that it felt real. It made everything sound so glamorous at times, but I loved that the author also showed the consequences of the character’s decisions. The end of this story gripped my attention. It was an unexpected and emotional conclusion to a unique story.