Author: L.L Collins
Series: , #1
Publisher by: Independent
Published on: January 12, 2014
Genres: Contemporary Romance, Romance
Page Count: 438
Kayley Carson thought she had it all--married to the love of her life, a great job, and a baby on the way. Then one day, her life changes forever when she loses her husband in a tragic accident. No longer sure how to navigate life after her enormous loss, Kayley clings to her newborn baby, her family, and her friends to keep herself living.
When she meets someone that challenges her belief that she's better off alone, she has to decide if she is capable of letting him in after swearing she was never going to love anyone the same way again.
She's not the only one with a painful past. He is struggling with trust issues after a previous relationship went horribly wrong. After a terrible misunderstanding brings out both of their insecurities, will the painful memories of the past keep them both from living again?
This book was five stars for me all around. I loved absolutely every single solitary thing about the way this book was written. I didn’t read this book however, I lived it. I was engulfed in the life of these characters. I didn’t even have to try to connect with these characters…they connected with me. From the very first page (which was horrible might I ad) to the very last page (which was not horrible) I was a silent bystander in their lives…not a reader.
Okay…so now to actually discuss this book.
This book starts off at a freaking funeral. I think that’s why it was so easy for me to drown myself in the book. Because from there very first page you are emotionally invested whether you want to be or not. Kayley Carson met and married the man of her dreams. She was prepared to spend the rest of forever living out her days with her best friend, lover, husband, and father of their unborn daughter. Life, however, had other plans for her future.
After a car accident claimed the life of her husband, Alex, Kayley was left a widow, a single mother, and a broken woman. The only thing keeping her alive is her baby girl Alexis. Alexis’s first birthday goes horribly wrong when Alexis ends up having a seizure. As horrible as this incident is, out of it comes a beautiful story.
Ben Nichols (AKA Dr. Yummy), one of the doctors in charge of Alexis’s case, is immediately drawn to Kayley. Having gone through a rough past as well, he’s almost hesitant to pursue Kayley, but that undeniable connection he feels towards her pushes him to ignore his past. For the first time since Alex’s death, felt something other than sadness, she was intrigued by the Ben. She was attracted to him, even though she tried to talk herself out of it.
Before Alexis is released from the hospital, Ben makes the bold move of asking Kayley if he can see her again. Initially of course she declines, but before she can stop herself, she tells him where she works so that he can find her.
From here, basically throughout the rest of the story…ladies be prepared to swoon! Ben is Kayley’s medicine. (pun intended…you know…because he’s a doctor…doctors prescribe medicine? You get it? Okay good). Slowly but surely, Kayley finds herself feeling less lonely, and less guilty about moving on from Alex.
When Ben finally meets Alexis for the first time (outside of the hospital)…well…god damn is he amazing. He starts to realize that Alexis and Kayley fill a void in him that he didn’t even know existed. It seems that Kayley and Alexis become Ben’s medicine as well.
This story is beautifully written. Honestly, the title is the most accurate title for a book ever. This experience (notice I say experience and not book) takes you on the heartbreaking, but beautiful journey of a widow, single mom, and broken woman, who with the love of a man learns to actually live again. She learns that she deserves to live out her happily ever after. And with Dr. Ben “Yummy” Nichols, that’s exactly what she gets.
He realized he was still standing in the same place, watching where Kayley had since gotten onto the elevator and left the hospital. He blew out a big breath and turned to walk down the hallway when he practically ran into the girl that had been with Kayley downstairs in the ER.
A wide smile played on her lips as she recognized him. “Hello,” she said, looking into the room where Kayley had been and realizing that he was standing right outside it.
“Hi,” he said, keeping eye contact even though he was embarrassed that she seemingly caught him standing there outside the room. “You are Kayley’s friend, right?”
“Emily,” she said, holding out her hand. He took it and shook her hand, seeing the mischievous look in her eye. She was a beautiful woman herself, but he didn’t feel anywhere near the same as he did when he looked into Kayley’s eyes. “Did she leave already?”
He felt caught, knowing that she knew that was why he was standing there but not wanting to outright admit that he was keeping track of Kayley. Well, he was. “Oh uh, yeah, I think she left a few minutes ago.”
Emily laughed, breaking the silence of the hospital hallway. “Really,” she started, putting her small hand on his forearm. “Don’t stand here and pretend that you aren’t up here for Kayley and that you don’t know exactly how many seconds ago she left.”
He couldn’t help it, he laughed. He liked this girl. She reminded him of his sister Lindsay, three years younger than him. She never minced words with him either. He held up his hands in mock surrender. “Okay, okay, you got me,” he smiled, feeling immediately like he could trust her. “She left..” he made a point of looking at the watch on his left arm, “Three minutes and twenty nine seconds ago.”
“And did you ask her out? I saw the way you looked at her in that exam room downstairs. I might be married, but even I know the look a man gives a woman when he’s interested.”
He blew out the breath he had been holding. “Well, I tried.” He ran his hands through his hair again. “I can’t explain why I feel so drawn to her, Emily. I mean, she’s beautiful and obviously a good mom, but that’s not why I feel so connected to her. I mean, I didn’t know anything about her until ten minutes ago except her name. Hell, I took a chance by coming up here that she wasn’t married. Now I know she has had the worst year of her life. I know she was completely in love with her husband, I can tell that by what she told me. But- I want to know more about her. Who she is. Whether there is something there with us.”
“What did she say?” Emily’s voice was soft, her expression kind. They moved to the side as a mom pulled a toddler in a wagon down the hallway, an IV bag attached to the pole on the wagon. The toddler squealed in delight.
“She told me she couldn’t be in a relationship, that she didn’t know if she ever could again,” he explained. “But then, when she turned her back to me and was packing their things, she told me that she works at In Loving Hands Therapy Center. Then she walked out.”
A smile lit up Emily’s face. “Really?” she practically jumped up and down. “She did? She told you where she works? Wow.”
When she had said that he had felt like it was a good sign, but seeing Emily’s reaction, he knew that it definitely was.
“Don’t give up,” Emily advised, taking out a piece of paper and jotting her number on it. “Here, take this. Just in case.” She winked at him and took off down the hallway, her cell to her ear.
He watched her until she disappeared into the elevator, then looked at the scrawled note on the back of the gift shop receipt. He took out his cell phone and programmed Emily’s number in it. His heart pounded as he thought of the feeling he had when he looked into Kayley’s eyes, and hope surged in him as he thought of her telling him where she worked. She may not have fallen into his arms, begging for a date. But she had given him enough to keep going.
He pivoted down the hallway and headed back to his own floor to see what was going on in the ER, but his thoughts never left the beautiful girl with the painful past.