Author: Kirsty Dallas
Publisher by: Independent
Published on: November 1, 2014
Genres: Contemporary Romance, Romance
There was no bright light in my death, but perhaps that is because I wasn’t destined for the angelic beauty of heaven. No, my short lived life had been played out with so much sin and excess that there would no doubt be a special cage in hell with my name on it. In my death, I felt and saw nothing. No warmth, no cold, no light, no darkness, just nothing. When I woke, he was gone, the only piece of perfection in my ugly world. Part of me was grateful that he had finally found the good sense to leave. Another part of me was broken, irrevocably and agonizingly broken.
Reader Warning - This book is intended for mature audiences. It contains language which some may find offensive, sexual content and drug use. There is also a sexual scene of questionable consent which some readers may find difficult to read.
Violet Addiction was not your typical love story.It was a messy, gritty tale of addiction, self destruction, and redemption. This was a love story ten years in the making. From the very first chapter this story captivated me and held my attention. This story takes us through Violet’s end to her brand new beginning.
“They say the sky is the limit, but you and me together, baby, maybe we’ll reach the fucking heavens.”
Violet and Cain first meet when they are 16. Violet always loved music and always loved to sing. The moment she saw him playing the piano, she was completely drawn to him. Violet grew up with a drug addicted mother and an alcoholic father. Her father loved her, but he loved his wife more. There were times when her mom was sober and her life was happy but when she wasn’t Violet’s life was miserable. I felt Violet’s pain. Her mother’s addiction affected her immensely. She felt poor, ordinary, and unwanted but in the brief moment they met, Cain made her feel special, her made her feel important.
“I was nothing, where as Cain as everything….”
Ten years later, Cain and Violet are best friends and music partners. They have a jazz act and are they are successful. They are happy together but only as friends.They flirt, give chaste kisses, but Cain wants more from their relationship and so does Violet but she doesn’t feel she’s worthy of him. Cain grew up with a stable, successful family and she doesn’t want to drag him down into her own darkness. Violet is in the cusps of her own addiction to cocaine and alcohol. She needs it, lives for it, and Cain hates what it does to her. He’s always there for her, always loving her, but she pushes him away constantly.
“I missed the blissful, invincible feeling that came with my first line of cocaine.”
One night Violet’s addiction takes her to her very darkest moment. I admit while reading the scene, I had a bad feeling, but it didn’t think author would take it to that point. It made cringe because it pushed me a little past my comfort level and my heart broke for Violet. It as hard seeing her at her lowest and even worse is Cain had to witness it. That day changed her forever. It was the day she died, the day she was reborn, and the day that she finally pushed Cain away.
“Sometimes you have to fall so you can learn to stand back up. Falling is hard though; it scary and it’s painful. Standing back up is somehow worse.”
After that day, Violet tried to get her life back on track. She had to live with what happened but losing Cain was the part the hurt the most. As much as it hurt she wanted to try and stand on her own again. She went through rehab and was doing better. Six months after her time in rehab, she went on a vacation to Italy to give herself time to recuperate. She was learning to love herself and she was healthier and happier than she had ever been. She even met someone that she felt she could move on with, but her heart still yearned for Cain. When a tragedy strikes her family, she heads back home for the first time in months. She’s hurt and heart broken but she also gets to see Cain. There is so much pain and heartbreak between them but also so much love there. Violet felt abandoned by him, even though she wanted him to go and Cain still didn’t know the true secrets of what happened that night.
“Violet, you are so apart of me of my life; there is no Cain Everett without Violet Trivoli.”
I wanted to be angry that Cain left her at her lowest point but I understood his reasoning. I don’t want to say too much more but their relationship was hard fought. They both were trying to move on but they had always been drawn to each other. I really felt they were soul mates. I was rooting for them from the very beginning. I loved seeing Violet grow as a character. She had so much self loathing and pain and to see her work to get past that was amazing. I felt so much with this story. It was not a simple story and Kirtsy Dallas wrote it with heart and grit. At times I really didn’t know how the story would end but I enjoyed throughout. Towards the end I did want their to be a tad bit more angst but I was truly happy with how it turned out. If you want a raw, emotional story, I definitely recommend this book.
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