Author: Aimee L. Salter
Publisher by: Alloy Entertainment
Published on: July 29, 2014
Genres: Mature YA
When seventeen-year-old Ashley Watson walks through the halls of her high school, bullies taunt and shove her. She can't go a day without fighting with her mother. And no matter how hard she tries, she can't make her best friend, Matt, fall in love with her. But Ashley also has something no one else does: a literal glimpse into the future. When Ashley looks into the mirror, she can see her twenty-three-year-old self.
Her older self has been through it all already--she endured the bullying, survived the heartbreak, and heard every ugly word her classmates threw at her. But her older self is also keeping a dark secret: Something terrible is about to happen to Ashley. Something that will change her life forever. Something even her older self is powerless to stop.
Perfect for fans of Thirteen Reasons Why and The List, Every Ugly Word is a gripping and emotional story about the devastating consequences of bullying.
This is a new release of the previously self-published title Breakable.
It isn’t what happens to you in your life that destroys you. It’s what you do about it.
Every Ugly Word was a unique story but it left me with some mixed feelings. On one hand it was captivating story about the painful effects of bullying and trying to overcome your personal pain. On another, it was a frustrating yet seemingly realistic account of bullying and the consequences of our actions.
The story opens up with Ashley speaking to her therapist. You don’t know why she’s been in long term therapy but she’s desperate to be released from it. Her therapist ask her to retell the events that lead up to her being there. As Ashley recounts her story you find out that when she was thirteen she made up a silly rumor about a male friend. She hoped that it would boost her popularity but in reality what happened was the complete opposite. She was labeled a liar and ostracized by most of her friends and classmates. For the next four years Ashley had to live through constant bullying. She was taunted, teased, and told deplorable things.
“You can’t control how other people hurt you, Ashley. But you can control how you hurt yourself.”
The only friend Ashley had left was her childhood friend Matt. Matt supported her but he was still just a normal teen-aged boy and at times he was very inconsiderate of her feelings. He wanted her to try and win the bullies over. He never knew how bad things were for her (mainly because she never told him!!!) but sometimes his good intentions hurt her more than they helped her.
I don’t want to say I disliked Ashley, I liked her to an extent but her mindset and her decisions upset me. There were times where I wanted to beg her to speak up for herself, to tell the truth about what was happening to her, and let someone know just how bad it was for her. She was stubborn to a fault and I wish she would have done things differently. Her silence hurt her just as much as the bullying did.
“You can either keep going and prove everyone wrong―show them you didn’t deserve to get it in the first place. Or you can roll around in it and think you deserve it, and start acting like you do.”
I don’t want to give away too much of the story’s plot but it kept me turning the pages. You really got to see Ashley’s thought process and how she perceived things. Her bullying was horrendous. She was pushed, tripped, and degraded. It was awful. It really hurt her emotionally and mentally.
The twist to this story was …..interesting. It was certainly not something I suspected and while it was unique, it left to me utterly confused. I wish that that element of the story had been plotted out more thoroughly. I think it would have had a bigger impact to the story. This book did keep me engaged and in did have a meaningful message. I would like to read more of Ms. Salter’s work.
“You just haven’t grown up enough yet to realize courage isn’t fearless.”
Read Chapter One of Every Ugly Word