Author: A. Meredith Walters
Publisher by: Gallery Books
Published on: August 5, 2014
Page Count: 400
In this dangerously sexy novel from the New York Times bestselling author of Find You in the Dark, a straight-laced college student meets a handsome but enigmatic stranger who lures her into an underground club scene, where she finds it difficult to resist temptation
Aubrey Duncan understands loss. She knows what rock bottom looks like, and she is determined to crawl back up to the top after the sudden death of her younger sister. She blames herself for her part in the tragedy, convinced that she could have done something, anything, to help her.
In her effort to gain redemption, Aubrey starts fresh at Longwood University and facilitates an addiction support group, hoping she can support someone else in the way she failed her sister. But what she doesn’t count on is an all-consuming fascination with group member Maxx Demelo, a gorgeous, blond, blue-eyed enigma who hides dark secrets behind a carefully constructed mask. He only reveals what he wants others to see. But Aubrey glimpses another Maxx hidden below the surface—a Maxx who is drowning in his own personal hell.
As Aubrey and Maxx develop an attraction too intense to ignore, he pulls her into the dark underbelly of the city club scene, where she is torn by her desire to save him and an inexplicable urge to join him in his downward spiral. Worst of all, she is beginning to love everything she should run away from—a man who threatens to ignite in her a fire that could burn her alive…
Sometimes you go into a book and you just know is going to destroy your emotions. Lead Me Not was that sort of book. A Meredith Walters completely broke me in the most wonderful way. This story left me with an ache in my chest and my emotions all over the place. It felt so real, so raw, and so honest, I truly felt as if I was experiencing it. It wasn’t an easy read but it was an amazing story.
Aubrey is this beautiful and smart student. She’s studying to be a drug counselor at her university. She lost her younger sister Jamie to a drug overdose three years ago. She hasn’t fully dealt with her loss and since then she’s wanted to help others in that situation. She wants to fix things. Aubrey is all about control, order, and her academics. Things are normally very black and white in her world. Her relationship with her parents is strained and other than her friend Brooks and Renee, she doesn’t form many friendships. When she starts facilitating a drug abuse program she meets Maxx.
Maxx, was the very opposite of Aubrey. He had this energy and magnetism that captivated everyone around him. Maxx is smart, talented, and he’s an addict. They share a connection with each other but starting a relationship with Aubrey is something he knows he shouldn’t do. He’s a broken man and he harbors so much guilt and self-doubt. She’s the first person he’s needs and he doesn’t want to let her go and despite herself Aubrey desperately wants to be with him and to save him.
Maxx desperately loved Aubrey and she loved him but his addiction controlled him. I know Maxx and Aubrey’s relationship was toxic but when they were together it was amazing. I wanted for Maxx to be able to get past his addictions and I wanted to Aubrey to be able to help him. My heart hurt for them both and I was sad and angry at Maxx’s choices but my heart also broke for him. There were so many different elements to this story and so many choices to be made. As much as she wanted him, Maxx was slowly becoming Aubrey’s addiction and she had to choose to either save him or save herself.
This story sucked me in and I didn’t want it to end but I was desperate to see how it all would turn out. This is a story that will stick with me. The ending wasn’t perfect but it was so honest and I’m anxious to see how their story will end.