Author: Rachael Wade
Publisher by: Independent
Published on: January 23, 2014
Genres: Contemporary Romance, Romance
Page Count: 218
Related Books: The Prisoner
*Contains sexually explicit content and mature subject matter, including language and elements of abuse.*
A gritty New Adult drama about a young woman’s self-destructive quest to find purpose, self-worth, and love in a broken world.
My name is Elise Duchamp. I’m twenty-three years old and I’m known as the town whore.
No, not the kind who exchanges sexual favors for money. The other kind. The kind who gives it all away for free, whenever and however she likes. I am that girl. The one everyone whispers about and the one none of the girls seem to like, because all of their boyfriends either want to sleep with me or already have. Promiscuity is my thing—the kind that slowly, violently turns my insides black, but gives me something I need.
All things considered, I’m not completely reckless. I’m safe, and contrary to popular opinion, I do have a heart. I live in a world of careless choices, and with those choices come careless people. I cannot judge them, because I am one of them. I too bow down to the altar of the self-serving. I am not a good friend. I am not and never could be anyone’s girlfriend. I’m convinced any goodness in me shriveled up and died long ago.
But I am a replacement. That is something I know how to be, and this is a story of the lengths I’d go to in order to keep it that way.
“The world likes to tell us not to be judgmental. To be kind and tolerant, loving and forgiving. But what they want and what they they’re actually willing to do are two very different things. At the core, the world is shallow. They want physical beauty, even if it’s only skin deep.’
Wow, this story hit me hard and that was so unexpected. I loved how honest and real it was.
Elise Duchamp is 23 years old and she is one beautifully broken girl. Her father always wanted perfection from both her and her mother. Her mother always taught her beauty was what was most important, it gave her power. When her mother was dying of cancer her father abandoned her family, degraded her, and made Elise feel as though she was the cause of her mother’s illness.
“I am a substitute. A misfit. A liar, a thief, and a wh*re. I exist to be used, not to belong.”
Elise didn’t think she deserved much in life. As beautiful as she is, she was also broken, damaged, and felt undeserving of love. She looked comfort and affection in the arms and beds of most of the men in town. It gave her a sense of control and power and it didn’t matter if they were taking or single. She needed the power and satisfaction that being with those men gave her. Elise knew who and want she was. Even though she knew it was wrong, she continued to do it. She used men and they used her in return.
“I make good people do bad things. I also make bad people to do worse things.”
Elise doesn’t have any real friendships. Her only dream is to learn French and go to Paris. Her co-worker Natalie and her boss Jay are the only people that take a genuine interest in Elise and want to see her happy. Even though she tries to keep her distance. When she meets her new handyman Ryder things change. He makes her feel, not just sexually but truly feel like she could want and need more. As much as she would like to be with him, she just doesn’t believe she deserves him. Ryder was sexy, rugged, and a book lover!! He’s just about the perfect guy. When he meets Elise, he just wants to know her better. Even as they begin to spend time together she keeps herself at a distance. He forces her to open up, he gives her honesty and kindness that she doesn’t normally see and it scares her. He doesn’t care about her past; all he wants is her, and honesty from her.
Normally Elise is the type of character I might not like but damn I couldn’t help rooting for her. She did bad things but she had been taught twisted values. It’s not an excuse but I understood her. I wanted her to see that she deserved better. This was a great story about finding yourself, accepting your past, and loving yourself enough to know you deserve more. Racheal wrote an amazing story and it was truly well written. From the first to the very last page, I was drawn into the story. Great book 4.5 stars