Author: Mia Asher
Publisher by: Independent
Published on: August 23, 2013
Genres: Adult Contemporary Romance, Erotic Romance, Romance
One glance was all it took…
I'm a cheater.
I'm a liar.
My whole life is a mess.
I love a man.
No, I love two men…
One makes love to me. The other sets me on fire.
One is my rock. The other is my kryptonite.
I'm broken, lost, and disgusted with myself.
But I can't stop. This is my story.
My broken love story.
I read Arsen in June of 2014. I had heard tons of buzz about it and read so many reviews. My book bestie Yamara is a HUGE fan and she nudged me to read it by gifting it to me. I think I spent a majority of this book just truly pissed off but, I kept turning the pages because Mia Asher’s writing was flawless. Arsen is probably one of the best written books that I have ever disliked. I mean that with love.
“Love can destroy you. Love can erase you. Love can heal you. Love can reinvent you, And if you are lucky enough, Love can make you whole again.”
This book, sigh, this book, I’m still sorting out my feelings for it. I honestly feel numb. While I was reading I felt sad, mad, and annoyed. I will say that, Mia Asher wrote a well written story. She painted the beginning of Ben and Cathy’s relationship beautifully and transitioned the story well. She showed how two people came together, fell in love, got married, and how little by little one of them slowly drifted and it tore them apart.
Cathy and Ben have been together for over ten years and married for six. They had this beautiful fairy tale romance and loved each other completely. They have wealth and a beautiful home but the one thing they desire the most, a baby, is taken away from them time after time. With each miscarriage she has, Cathy breaks more and more. It makes her feel like less of women, less of a person. The losses put a strain on her marriage. She doesn’t feel as connected to Ben anymore. She scared and insecure and the more Ben tries to dispel her fears, Cathy begins to resent him. She feels as if he’s too perfect and that he doesn’t understand her fears and feelings. Cathy slowly begins to hold it in and drift away from him.
When Cathy meets Arsen, her boss’s son, there is spark between them that she hasn’t felt in her marriage for a while. Arsen is younger, wealthy, handsome, and he wants her. The two form a friendship and work relationship but the attraction is still there. You see the flirtation, the little white lies to hang out with each other, and it all begins to build up. When Cathy suffers her fourth miscarriage it doesn’t just break her it shatters her. She withdraws from her Ben, her friends, her family, and most of all herself. She no longer cares about anything; especially her marriage and it sends her into Arsen’s arms.
“It’s funny his name reminded me of fire because he certainly looked like someone who could burn you to the ground.”
I read this book with my jaw clenched and my hands gripping the kindle. I was upset and hurt for Ben. He was one of the most sweet and loving characters. He loved his wife body and soul. He would have done anything for her, absolutely anything. He would have taken away her pain if he could and he loved her enough for the both of them when she was hurting. Yet, Cathy just pulled away from him, lied to him, and blatantly cheated on him. Ben was the one my heart truly hurt for.
“Own me, fill me, break me, repair me, complete me. Do whatever you want to me. Just stay with me. I need you.” ~ Ben
I both understood and disliked Cathy. I understood that she was hurt and grieving over her miscarriages but I hated her decisions. You chose to be open and honest with Arsen, but Ben who she loved and supported her, she basically disregarded him. Arsen excited her and brought out a different side of her. Reading her character you could tell she always had a problem with insecurity and vulnerability and it reflected in her poor decisions she made. It was as if she was seeking validity for her imperfections. Yet no matter how deep her feelings for Arsen were, she still loved Ben.
“Arsen became the air I needed to breath but Ben was my lungs.”
Now, Arsen himself I could not connect with. He came off crude, selfish, childish, and downright mean at times. He was also someone that was broken and hurt too and he did help Cathy in some ways, but I just could not understand the real attraction to him.
Ultimately this story is about love, loss, fears, and forgiveness. It was great writing although it was a bit slow at times. I didn’t love it but I did like it.
“Falling in love with someone is easy. It’s loving when the newness has worn off, when life gets tough, when things, get in the way, when physical passion is gone, that true love remains. When love can conquer it all.”
“Love is infinite. There is no beginning and no end. There’s no starting point and no finishing line. Love just is.”