Author: S.L Jennings
Publisher by: Independent
Published on: July 18, 2013
Genres: Contemporary Romance, Romance
I can’t remember the last time I felt completely safe. Security seemed more like a luxury to me, reserved for those who were fortunate enough to have picture perfect childhoods. For those who didn’t bear the ugly scars that keep me bound in constant, debilitating fear. I’ve run from that fear my entire life. But when I met him, for once, I couldn’t run anymore.
He scared the hell out of me in a way that excited every fiber of my being. It wasn’t the tattoos or the piercings. It wasn’t the warmth that seemed to radiate from his frame and blanket me whenever he was near. It was just…him. The scary beautiful man that threatened to alter 23 years of routine and rituals, and make me face my crippling fear.
My name is Kami and I am constantly afraid. And the thing that scares me the most is the very thing I want.
“Don’t worry,” he smiled, pulling me into the hard warmth of his chest. “I’ve got you. I’ll always catch you when you fall.”
And just like that, Blaine had staked his claim on the untouched part of me that no living soul had ever moved. He had captured every fear, every reservation, and crushed them in the palm of his inked hand.
Author Disclaimer: Abuse is real- verbal, emotional, physical and sexual. It takes place all around us; it doesn’t discriminate against race or gender, wealth or poverty. It affects us all- those of us who’ve had to live through it, or watch it happen, even those of us who’ve only heard about it. We are all affected. We are all forever changed.
This is not a story for the faint of heart; this is the story of one woman’s very real struggle through a world against her, the people who hurt her, her real life demons and the people who showed her that every gray sky, no matter how dark, has a sun waiting to break through.
***Inspired by true events***
This is another Throw Back Thursday review. I read Fear Of Falling is July 2013. This was the first S.L Jennings book that I had ever read. I remember hearing so many rave reviews about it. I was initially hesitant to read it because I didn’t know if it would live up to the hype. Well, Ms. Jennings floored me. It was a fantastic emotional read.
Words can not describe how much I enjoyed this book. Few books truly live up to buzz and Fear of
Falling absolutely did. It was amazingly written, dark, and heart-breakingly beautiful.
“Your fears are not you. Do you hear me? They don’t define you.”
Kami was a character who was broken, so broken, and consumed by her fears. She wasn’t living, just existing. She was abused, hurt, tortured, and abandoned by the people who should have loved and protected her the most. Kami felt undeserving of love and the only version of love she knew was tainted.
Her best friends, Angel and Dom, are the only two people who truly know her and love her and vice versa. Both were broken like Kami but to somehow they all lived their lives with the help of each other.
Sigh, and Blaine. When Kami meets Blaine, it’s the first time she has ever felt more than a physical attraction for someone. Her fears and pain have kept her emotionally closed off to the opposite sex. She didn’t feel she could love or be loved but Blaine was her exception. Blaine was perfect. He had a rugged strength and honesty that was perfect for Kami and what she needed.
“Don’t worry…I’ve got you. I’ll always catch you when you fall.”
The build up and development of their relationship was refreshing, there was definitely an instant connection but it wasn’t rushed and seemed so genuine. I loved the way he loved her and cared for her. How he fought for her. Even if it wasn’t easy, he just wanted her flaws and all. I adored him.
This was really a journey of self discovery and healing. I loved all the characters. Each had their own hurt and heart break but still kept on going. The wittiness and banter, the friendships, the pain made this just an all around wonderful story.
“Life may not be pretty, but it’s always beautiful. We may only see the ugliness on the surface. The shit that only the world chooses to notice. But if we dig deep,’if we get to the heart of life, where there’s no pain or fear, where we can just be who we are and love freely without judgement, it’s really beautiful.”